The Fox at Dawn


4.13.20 Young God
April 13, 2020, 9:02 pm
Filed under: Teaching, Uncategorized, Writing | Tags: , , ,
Spent a little too much time in front of a screen today.

I wrote the piece below some time ago, a few years ago in fact. I came across it a few days ago and it made me think again about how much I’ve been longing for a change in the way time is spent, about how hard it is to step outside time’s current. I’m sorry, deeply sorry for the pandemic and the loss and suffering it is causing. I’m also relieved to sit on the bank for a time and watch the river rush on, online teaching aside…

Young god
 
Just try getting to the heart of anything
in the divided day,
patchworked with tasks
driven by calendar alerts,
servant to the god of Newton.
 
·      don’t forget you have to
·      make sure there is enough to
·      pick up so and so at such and such a time
·      you must remember to
·      do you have time for
·      make sure that so and so knows
·      how long will it take to
 
(plan teach assess grade sweep clean weed water 
feed clear wash dry fold put away pay collect 
calculate estimate gather cook serve take away 
pick up drop off control keep safe compose send
 flag mark as unread trash)
 
The gods of Jung sow seeds of revolution 
in my sleep,
where strange long halls in my house open 
to unknown rooms whose ceilings 
are nothing but stars,
where icy seas lap the curbs of my city
and navigation requires a true horizon.
 
The ancient ones are roused,
the gods of breath and pulse,
of water, wind, leaf and stone.
They are shouting now,
Clamoring between my daylight steps,
I must stop or be tripped-
 
    Smash all the clocks!
    Tear the leaves from the calendar
    and let them fly through the windows!
    Throw them all on the tracks,
     the train you scheduled is barreling through!
 
You foolish young god, you,
Time is your own invention.
 





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Your writing is so moving, Lauren, thank you for continuing to share it!

Comment by Gita Donovan

Thank you for reading Gita! I hope you are well! It’s scary times.

Comment by Loren Crawford




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